Ok this is ridiculous!! I really need to get back on track with this blog. I first started writing this blog to keep myself and others motivated and I haven't done that, so I apologize for that!!

So..... I've been discouraged as far as workouts and the diet and everything else in life!! But my trainer kinda yelled at me (nicely) for me to get back on track and to not let my demons hunt me anymore. And so I have been giving my best at the workouts, I can't say the same as far as the diet goes.

I did lose 3 lbs two weeks ago and that got me motivated again, BUT I am not following my diet plan 100%. I've been slacking off on weekends and have been eating junk food here and there, but after sunday I made another commitment to myself that I am more than halfway there and I CAN'T give up! So here I am again on the road of losing 60 lbs, 38 lbs are gone and I am down to 162 lbs. I've never never ever been this light so it is pretty exciting, so I should remind myself that it is ok to take small breaks but probably not a good idea to eat junk food for 4 meals on the weekend.

This weekend my trainer asked me to send him a before/after picture and when I saw them side by side I was shocked!!!! I look soooooo much better now physically, and feel better about myself mentally.

I did slack off again this weekend I guess because I felt great about myself. But today I have decided that it is better to just get this diet over with, so when I reach my goal I can go ahead and allow myself to have a little junk food here and there without feeling like I'm cheating myself. I do understand now that my eating lifestyle will be totally different but having a nice and healthy body comes with its consequences. And NO I will NEVER let myself be heavy again! So I gotta do what I gotta do to maintain my new body.

Here's the picture of my before and after, Well it's more like a before and during because I will continue to lose a little more weight until I reach my goal =)

After a week, I'm back!!! 

You spend all those months on a diet, your precious time working out and when you finally reach your goal you realize that you look great, but what about the saggy skin??

Yesterday I was looking at the mirror after taking a shower to see the differences I see so far after I have lost about 34 lbs. I noticed that in some areas of my body like my arm, inner thighs, and my lower abdomen seems to have extra skin that should't be there?!!

Would it go away after working out for a long time or will I be a 140 lbs girl with saggy skin for the rest of my life, leaving no choice but to get plastic surgery?? I am a little freaked out thinking about these things, but one thing I'll know for sure is that I will be healthier.

I did a few researches over this topic and I learned that the skin will go back faster depending on the age of the person, and if you are also exercising as well as having a good balanced diet. I'm still freaked out by the thought of having lose skin after dreaming and working my butt off to have the perfect body.  My trainer did say that it will go back with time but I'm still freaked out..

I guess I will only be able to tell in a few more months after I reach my goal.

I just wrote a huge post and my computer turned off and didn't save anything =( so I will try to write it again in a smaller version!

 This lasagna sure looks good but no I'm not allowed to eat it!!

So the last couple of days has been very tough! I crashed my car and I had to deal with all the stress that comes with it, and when you are going through tough things, who wants to think about dieting?? NOT ME. So last sunday I ended up eating lasagna and strawberry cake, plus some Brazilian chocolate. At the time I was eating it tasted great but afterwards I had that guilt of "shit I won't lose any weight this week" which means I am farther away from my goal.

Oh and I also forgot to mention that I ate a whole chocolate bar all by myself.

And on monday night I went to church and they had this great dinner and since I hadn't eaten my dinner I thought I'd eat just a little bit but ended up eating things that I probably shouldn't have. So I pretty much had 2 days of bad eating but you know what? I am only a human being and sometimes it's ok to fall off track but always remember to get right back on track the next day!

To me that means I probably won't lose anything this week but I will only find out for sure on friday. Hopefully next week things will get back on track and I will do my best to lose the weight! I am at 168 lbs and want to be around 140ish.. I have lost a total of 32 lbs and still have a long way to go so I need to refocus and do everything I can do reach my goal.

So here's a little of whats been going on in my life. I hope you guys have a good night =)